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Medic1I have been a Paramedic for 10 years for the City of Hamilton. I am a father to 2 beautiful girls, who are in Grade 2 and 3. I have been married to an extraordinary woman for over 14 years. I am a total Apple geek, and love my Toronto Maple Leafs so much, I bleed blue.

I am suffering from PTSD. This blog is about my recovery from the horrible things I have to witness on the job.

  • Matt

    Hey HM

    I wanted to share something with you. I am a volunteer with St. John Ambulance, and I know that in some areas of Ontario, those aren’t words you want to hear… but I’m one of the good guys… I work hard, learn as much as I can, and look forward to having the money to take the 2-yr course here in Windsor.

    Almost 3 weeks ago now, I worked my first code when I stopped to help at an MVC. It was a traumatic arrest, and the responding ALS unit immediately contacted BH for a trauma-TOR. They were denied, and so we continued our efforts.

    That call was hard for me for a while. But when I read your blog, I recognized some of the things you said, and seeing that WSIB and the different services are taking this seriously was a huge relief. I was worried to pursue this dream, because it didn’t want to get dedicated, to then end up in a bad condition, only to find out I was on my own to get better.

    I can’t thank you enough for sharing your experience, and I look forward to reading more,

    Stay strong brother, you are my angel in disguise.

  • torontopts

    Hi HM,

    I love your blog so far. I’ve always been interested in both being a medic, and in the effects of PTSD. I’m currently a university student studying psychology, and afterwards I hope to get my EMCA and find work with a service. Down the line, I’d love to return to psych and work on my masters and further contribute to research in PTSD. I work for a patient-transfer service currently (I know the feelings some medics have for us, but I want to assure you I’m one of the different ones) and it’s unfortunate the number of people we transfer from hospital to a mental health facility because their lives have been so negatively affected by PTSD (most of them from the Vietnam war currently) and subsequently by addiction. I love how you pointed out that it’s not only vets who suffer though. I wish this was something that more people noticed.

    I don’t know if you’ve ever heard of the organization called Tema Conter Memorial Trust. I’m sure you, as a medic in Southern Ontario, are familiar with the case of Tema Conter from the 80’s. One of the medics was so affected by his experience that he quit his job with his service and pursued a completely different career. Further down the line, he started this organization to raise awareness on the effects of PTSD in all emergency professions, not just military alone. I’ve done some volunteer work with them for the last four years and I’m sure they would love to hear from you.

    Good luck on your journey and I wish you all the best!

    PS – One of my good friends dads is a supervisor in the Hammer and I’m really happy that they offer you guys this type of support.